One Real Advice...

Colleagues could neva be FRIENDS...
I've heard from many who tell me this. Yesterday a cabby just told me so again...colleague who quarrel with you and show the real faces, fear not that much they'll betray you; but fr colleague who are "bestest" friend of yours...BEWARE!!! They are the ones probably back stabbing you...dying unknowingly!...

I've learned!!!

好混乱。。。

如今已要到结婚的地步，竟然越想就是越怕的。
昨晚才一场的冷战。。。为了么？就为了一些自尊面子问题。谈生意难道女人真的每本事吗？太瞧不起女人了！
您不喜欢带女人一同谈东西。。。原因？因为怕被人瞧不起，怕人家笑您说您靠女人，怕老婆的。。您自尊强，难道女人就该躲在家里？
好。。。那以后您别来阻挡我的事业。。。事业心强不是您一个人的事！我也会很强的！我还要做得比您强！您有您做法，我有我发挥。。。
女人。。。我跟你说:你最好给我打起十二分精神，试一定要考得好，工一定要高，钱要比男人赚得多！我不会输给您看的。。。

ADULTERY...Not a criminal??

Have you ever heard that adultery is not a criminal?

Well, this was really my first time. A friend of mine going tru divorcy, sadly, disappointedly writing her divorce statement. But one night when she reach home, she found an unknown woman in the house locked in the room with her husband....

Police came but nothing much to be done. His and her identification checked, and statement taken with only the poor girl. Seated lonely in the living hall, waiting for the husband to give a reasonable explanantion still. This was not his first affair...not the second but the third being exposed by this poor girl. No doubts to many other affair may be in between.

She went to the lawyer and this time she is now ready to disclose his shameful act. But surprisingly the lawyer said ADULTERY IS NOT A CRIMINAL...theres nothing much which could be done...This is really unfair.

Neither could she gain half his assets, nor does he does he pay her expenses for the legal case. He even could go against the court and refuses to pay the alimony. Where on earth is the women rights?

With laws like this, how could the situation be so unfair to the girl and yet the guy is the one gaining all kind of advantages? Isn't this just so encouraging the guys to cheat on their wives? How can women stand up bravely for divorce if she fell into unlucky situation like this? Is there really no way out?

GOD Bless You

I received a sms earlier this morning.

Surprisingly, it's from Joey - someone who is so lazy and won't even rely my sms-es. She's in hospital...just had her belly cut. She's been carrying this lump for quite sometimes since i knew her, but neva goes for any check up till recently few months ago.

Non of X-rays, scans, ultrasound shows the lump. These pissed off the doctors and claims that she's just paranoid, till she have them feel the lump with bare hands. Doctors obviously kept silence and discussed among themselves.

For sometimes i have not heard her mentioned bout this and out of sudden she just underwent the operation. She said that doctors have not known what is that, but to cut it off for biopsy test. WTF!!!...Can doctors just ask your flesh to be cut when they don't even know what is was? I'm startled. Normally, lumps or tumor which are not malignant tumor, they are not to be cut off. By cutting of an "unexploded" tumor...this would only enhance the growth or spreads...

Oh no...my thoughts is going wild now! Well...Pray...pray hard for her! May GOD bless you my dear friend...

Visit to SenSei...AGAIN~~~

My breathing getting worse and worse. Plus my coughing, non-stop everynight waking up just to cough. Some people even ask me if i'm gonna cough any blood out of me. That's how bad i'm coughing.

At last, stubbornly i went back to the sensei. Didn't want to go coz too costly, no choice still i went coz it's damn suffering.

The first thing he saw me coughing my lungs out, he shake his head. Then he start feeling my pulse, then took a look at my tongue. Well, i'm not exaggerating, but he gives me the feeling that the situation is really bad.

He said i'm not suppose to stress out too much, and not to think too over. Erm...did i? But how to relax? I'm really getting fed up living up with problems.

Cut the crap off, he gave me, say 6 different medicines. 2bottles to be taken in the morning 20biji each and a huge biji like a guli to be taken 3days once. Then after lunch, 2capsules type medicine, a 3biji and 2biji. These were said to be wild grown LingZhi. And the night, another bottle 8biji. My throat is now automatically locked. It's such a suffer to take so many many medicine. I'm darn! Moreover, these all sort of sufferings cost like shit...Say more than SGD600.00....

I hate it, I hate it, not coz the medicine is bitter but its so pricy and yet, how much does it really work? But my bf insisted me to get cured. Why must i get cured? Especially i don't even know the meaning of LIFE, i don't even know what am i living for now, what is the purpose of life? Where is my destintion, where am i supposed to go, supposed to do? But who could i tell this to? He doesn't like me talking nonsense like this. I dono who i could turn to anymore. A piece of advice from the sensei, he told me to let go myself, go enjoy, get him to walk me in the park, to spilled my heart out. He seems to be able to think what i'm thinking...just like a fortune teller. But i know better than anyone else. He's not gonna do such a thing for me...

I feel so lost, i'm lost indeed, i donno where i am, donno where i'm going, what i'm doing, what i'm thinking. Is my pace too slow? Or is it too fast? Maybe i've neva moved at all, i'm still at the start? I'm lost, and i'm so lost with no destination no purpose...

Shopping Fun...

Shopping was never a tiring job for me till the disaster happened. But still i've made a great harvest from my shopping this new year.

Well, I used to shop alot since young but always only cheap young girls stuff. But since i've been out in Singapore, i've learn to spend...let say quite luxoriously. Philosophy "Earned so hard, must spend happily to satisfy myself"...haha...

I guess my shopping started since last month or two ago, and it lasted, still continuing till now! Went City Square in JB, bought short with suspender(rm55), erm...spagheti top(rm20), suspender skirt(rm65), Holiday Plaza hunted a white knee height boots(rm200). Then, back in Singapore, went Bugis got denim skirt(sg25), wanting so much to get a dress but failed, instead got accessories...bangle, necklace, earing, rings etc. One of the weekend, we spent whole day to Central in Clarke Quay got a pair of high heels(sg45), and Far East in Orchard got a baby doll flower ball tube(sg29), some accessories and undies, a handbag(sg38), a dress(sg69)...finally...imported all the way from Japan designed...truely special. Then just yesterday was in Bugis again...caught a HongKong imported handbag(sg48), which look exactly like the snake leather...though man made...but still satisfy. And the surprise supposed to be is my tatoo(sg600) (seems like many saw it already)...thats why all my wearing are supposed to be bare back! Yeah, to show off! keke...

He bought too...from City Square accessories, Bugis also accessories, a long pants(sg70), Orchard a striped shirt, then back at Bugis a polo shirt(sg49) and accessories again! Hmm...seems like he's not having much yet... Let see... i'll made him get a shoes (New Balance might be his choice), another pants, one or two morevsweat shirt...boxers! Haha... Oh ya...he's got his tatoo much longer than mine(sg300)...adding on soon, very soon again...costing more than sg700 i supposed.

Wow...lets see how much we spent... Err...better not let mine and his mommy knows, or we get scolding man. Even his friend at work said we are too "generous", are we really?

Neva mind, this does not happen often, as we can go on the whole others day w/o shopping anymore, unless i eyed on something which is rare.

The next step would be Hairdo! He's gonna dye/highlight the sliverish white...with Rain's hairstyle. I donno how it looks like yet. As for me, a new hair cut by his "dear" and dye...or highlight maybe...colour?...Unknown yet. Nah, leave it to the stylist lah! Another thing...nail do...the Japanese 3D fashion... Oh Yeeah...

Hmm...i'll gonna make all eyes stare on me...too bad i'm still fat, never go slimming treatment. Argh...Diet does not work on me...!Aisheh...

A Complainer, A Whiner, A Loser

Days are boring. I'm either giving up on myself, abandoning myself, self ruining; or i'm just lacking of some magic dust to power up.

Days and night, all i complain is that, i can breath, air just cant get into my lungs, or my bone is pain...These complain sound so...annoying actually and i knew it. But i cant help it.

I am so not even 1% independent!

All i know is whinning like an overage baby. Whin about my job...yeah super duple sien. Whin about my damn pain. Whin about my meaningless life!

Well... i guess though i'm often unwell... that makes an excuse for me... and i'm too dependent to person beside me. I look up to my sister and salute at her. I wish to be like her... i was once actually same as her... If only i never pass the past path as it was...if only time can goes back... I'll choose my path... and i'll never be the same.

But this would never happen. I guess i would still be leading someone's else path, hopefully mistakenly i could re-enter to my path...to where i want to be, what i want to be. Too many dreams but its empty. A loser giving up hope grazing nowhere.

Visit to Chinese SenSei

I've seen too many doctors, but...chinese sen sei 1st time in my life.

Guess how amazing chinese medical could be. With just a swift feel on the wrist, he not only tell the pulse, but also your behaving and habits.

I've been quite breatheless nowadays. Air just cant get into the lungs thoroughly, always and almost suffocating. This was the only things i said, after he read my pulse, he told me alot of my habits, more like a fortune-teller than a sen sei.

I seldom eat in the daytime, or rather do not feel hungry. But once the night falls, my stomach start growling. When i don't eat, i really eat nothing, when i wanna eat, i can eat up the whole cow. Everytime after a meal, i'll start yawning and dozing off. The sen sei get every of this habits correctly.

Even my sleeping habits he could tell. I'm always restless...my brain! Though, i may be asleep, thats only my eyes. My brain, yet are too awake, and wondering from the north to the south of the world!

Dear Sensei...could you too tell me how my future would be?... its just amazing!

Of course, the medicine part is also shockingly amazing! Though its small round little one, black bitter-sweet...erm...but 20-30biji everytime and twice a day is alot leh!... And the worse is too many nice stuff i gotta give up. Especially chocolate!...cakes&bread, grapes... Aih...

A Decision to be Made...

Donno how things happen...but decision will have to be made by tonite...
And this would seriously affect alot...please pray for me!

Life really sucks!

Q & A

两个人在一起最重要的什么呢？？？

Translation: What is most important for two person to be togather and to last?

This question suddenly arose...

Answers needed...please comment!