Visit to SenSei...AGAIN~~~

My breathing getting worse and worse. Plus my coughing, non-stop everynight waking up just to cough. Some people even ask me if i'm gonna cough any blood out of me. That's how bad i'm coughing.

At last, stubbornly i went back to the sensei. Didn't want to go coz too costly, no choice still i went coz it's damn suffering.

The first thing he saw me coughing my lungs out, he shake his head. Then he start feeling my pulse, then took a look at my tongue. Well, i'm not exaggerating, but he gives me the feeling that the situation is really bad.

He said i'm not suppose to stress out too much, and not to think too over. Erm...did i? But how to relax? I'm really getting fed up living up with problems.

Cut the crap off, he gave me, say 6 different medicines. 2bottles to be taken in the morning 20biji each and a huge biji like a guli to be taken 3days once. Then after lunch, 2capsules type medicine, a 3biji and 2biji. These were said to be wild grown LingZhi. And the night, another bottle 8biji. My throat is now automatically locked. It's such a suffer to take so many many medicine. I'm darn! Moreover, these all sort of sufferings cost like shit...Say more than SGD600.00....

I hate it, I hate it, not coz the medicine is bitter but its so pricy and yet, how much does it really work? But my bf insisted me to get cured. Why must i get cured? Especially i don't even know the meaning of LIFE, i don't even know what am i living for now, what is the purpose of life? Where is my destintion, where am i supposed to go, supposed to do? But who could i tell this to? He doesn't like me talking nonsense like this. I dono who i could turn to anymore. A piece of advice from the sensei, he told me to let go myself, go enjoy, get him to walk me in the park, to spilled my heart out. He seems to be able to think what i'm thinking...just like a fortune teller. But i know better than anyone else. He's not gonna do such a thing for me...

I feel so lost, i'm lost indeed, i donno where i am, donno where i'm going, what i'm doing, what i'm thinking. Is my pace too slow? Or is it too fast? Maybe i've neva moved at all, i'm still at the start? I'm lost, and i'm so lost with no destination no purpose...

Shopping Fun...

Shopping was never a tiring job for me till the disaster happened. But still i've made a great harvest from my shopping this new year.

Well, I used to shop alot since young but always only cheap young girls stuff. But since i've been out in Singapore, i've learn to spend...let say quite luxoriously. Philosophy "Earned so hard, must spend happily to satisfy myself"...haha...

I guess my shopping started since last month or two ago, and it lasted, still continuing till now! Went City Square in JB, bought short with suspender(rm55), erm...spagheti top(rm20), suspender skirt(rm65), Holiday Plaza hunted a white knee height boots(rm200). Then, back in Singapore, went Bugis got denim skirt(sg25), wanting so much to get a dress but failed, instead got accessories...bangle, necklace, earing, rings etc. One of the weekend, we spent whole day to Central in Clarke Quay got a pair of high heels(sg45), and Far East in Orchard got a baby doll flower ball tube(sg29), some accessories and undies, a handbag(sg38), a dress(sg69)...finally...imported all the way from Japan designed...truely special. Then just yesterday was in Bugis again...caught a HongKong imported handbag(sg48), which look exactly like the snake leather...though man made...but still satisfy. And the surprise supposed to be is my tatoo(sg600) (seems like many saw it already)...thats why all my wearing are supposed to be bare back! Yeah, to show off! keke...

He bought too...from City Square accessories, Bugis also accessories, a long pants(sg70), Orchard a striped shirt, then back at Bugis a polo shirt(sg49) and accessories again! Hmm...seems like he's not having much yet... Let see... i'll made him get a shoes (New Balance might be his choice), another pants, one or two morevsweat shirt...boxers! Haha... Oh ya...he's got his tatoo much longer than mine(sg300)...adding on soon, very soon again...costing more than sg700 i supposed.

Wow...lets see how much we spent... Err...better not let mine and his mommy knows, or we get scolding man. Even his friend at work said we are too "generous", are we really?

Neva mind, this does not happen often, as we can go on the whole others day w/o shopping anymore, unless i eyed on something which is rare.

The next step would be Hairdo! He's gonna dye/highlight the sliverish white...with Rain's hairstyle. I donno how it looks like yet. As for me, a new hair cut by his "dear" and dye...or highlight maybe...colour?...Unknown yet. Nah, leave it to the stylist lah! Another thing...nail do...the Japanese 3D fashion... Oh Yeeah...

Hmm...i'll gonna make all eyes stare on me...too bad i'm still fat, never go slimming treatment. Argh...Diet does not work on me...!Aisheh...